the light

you’re making a fool of yourself

February 24, 2010 on 12:43 pm UTC | By rian | No Comments

it’s sad how much more often i have the urge to say this to people lately. people are always saying such nerdy, unfunny, or inconsequential things. i want to say “you don’t have to be so unfunny” or “you don’t have to use an exclamation mark there” or “you don’t have to be so unfunny, really.” even though it’s the fastest way to make your life completely meaningless, i like twitter because it shows you how meaningless everyone else’s life is. well i guess meaningless is a little harsh, pathetic is a better word.

we have this big life to live. it’s so big it’s hard to avoid how confusing it all is. how foolish you must be to pretend that you aren’t confused. and if you’re not pretending, well then you are just very short-sighted or stupid because look around you. none of it really makes any sense, everything you claim to know is just a figment of your puny imagination. okay here let me demonstrate:

i am good at this
and he is good at that
i am good at this because it is easy for me
and he is good at that because teacher says so
i like that i am good at this one little thing
i feel good when people notice that i am good at this
i feel bad when people notice him for being good at what i am good at
because i do this, i cannot be good at that
and because he does that he shouldn’t be good at this
i am good at this
and he is good at that

it’s this whole cog-mentality that bothers me. it’s just like, why is everyone so fucking uptight? why is everyone such a fucking lemming? why is everyone’s mind so closed and single-tracked and weird? what is even stranger to me is that i am 24 and these things aren’t children’s quirks anymore. adults are fucked up. grown people shouldn’t be so devoid of originality and independent thought and rationality, right?