the light

amanda you’ll like this

boys:

fuck

or

not fuck

girls:

friend

or

boyfriend

courtesy of christine (whom i don’t know btw)

it’ll be

hey girl

for a very long time

:(

by the way

make me a mixtape

make

me

a

mixtape

mix

tape

icy silence

hello

just text this is just text

radmike imma write that song, in fact i’ve already written it =)

i use the equals eyes these days

except it’s not like i write smiley faces anyway. as in emoticons are l4m3. get a life.

UGHHHHHHHH

oftentimes i am in this state where everything can be evaluated on this linear scale from worst to best. come onnn it’s not just me. i know it happens to you too.

whoa. woah. life is weird. seriously aren’t you guys like wtf life? wtf other people? wtf my hand? sometimes i’m like wtf programming? lol. i can imagine some people would argue that it’s unimportant to think about those things. i guess i would agree. it’s funny to me anyway. i burst out laughing. wtf life.

or. um. who is the role model? or of the ideal character? people choose their own heroes. do they?

i love good music. i’m so glad i listen to music. i’m so glad music actually exists and that people actually do it and crave to keep doing it better. huh? what linear scale? everyone does it so differently. i wish i could reference people more freely on this blog. some people i know are so damn rad.

how fast can you beat super mario world? no rly.

it doesn’t matter anyway
111111

so what about if everything wasn’t a joke? like you could be beautiful and that wasn’t a joke. no srsly. like people beheld you and were breath taken. no srsly. i think that would be pretty great. or what about if you could be as good as you thought you were.

this is a horrible world full of predators and people who fear predators. why is it that i think that spiders are smart and some people aren’t. i think it’s because people are emotional.

okay that’s it.

o barquinho

Dia de luz
Festa de sol
E o barquinho a deslizar
No macio azul do mar
Tudo é verão
O amor se faz
Num barquinho pelo mar
Que desliza sem parar
Sem intenção nossa canção
Vai saindo desse mar
E o sol beija o barco e luz
Dias tão azuis

Volta do mar
Desmaia o sol
E o barquinho a deslizar
E a vontade de cantar
Céu tão azul
Ilhas do sul
E o barquinho é um coração
Deslizando na canção
Tudo isso é paz
Tudo isso traz
Uma calma de verão e então
O barquinho vai
A tardinha cai
O barquinho vai

i caught a spider

it was hanging from my bathroom ceiling. i caught it and put it in a pickle jar. spiders can’t climb glass, i didn’t realize that. it’s small and probably evil.

only one lucky reader was quick enough to catch my long rant about how much i hate mit people and “technophiles”. i took it all out because i felt like my only goal in writing that negative crap was to alienate people. i don’t want to do that especially when i am already basically friendless.

but! i prefer being friendless over surrounding myself with people i don’t even really like. i used to think i knew what i liked. i used to be very accepting of all people. now. well, now. now? well there isn’t really anyone i know that i can relate to. i’m either too happy or too depressing, that’s funny. i also like honest unreserved limitless conversation, most people are taken off-guard.

i get bored enough that i think drinking will somehow fix it. or drinking will open me up to more people. yeah, about that. i wonder how many people do that, i don’t have any reason to believe that it’s many.

abrupt i know.

why do

people get divorced?

i mean

why do people who’ve been together for many many years get divorced?

whoeeyou gave you

yes for the first time i don’t feel like an idiot writing something for y’all.

okay, this is funny. so when i was in portland i forgot who said it but someone said “y’all” and it was really charming to me. so charming. i decided that i wanted to start saying “y’all”. so the night before i left i was hanging out with some of alex’s friends (a couple of her MANY MANY, MANY friends) and i got it in my head that i was going to take that opportunity to say “y’all” for the first time ever. i thought about it over and over and over and i felt like i was getting really creepy and weird contemplating it so much but eventually it came out. “so where are y’all from?” lol only one person responded. i guess personal questions like that don’t work in groups. or maybe it just didn’t make sense that a tall lanky mixed kid from miami would said “y’all” like that. ya that’s rite.

speaking of miami, http://www.downhomesouthernaires.com/.

i thought i could play this

<3

does this make sense? <3