the light

just a regular update

hey ppl

you ppl who read my blog. i love you! i have a twitter. i faced a minor dilemma when i made my twitter because i couldn’t decide what i wanted my pseudonym to be. these days i just go with “rian” hoping that it would be obscure enough. too bad i missed the initial twitter wave to get the mildly obscure handle. anyway i picked “timeserena” as my pseudonym, as a link my qq days. lol. i actually do have a slightly more recent pseudonym “chrono86″ but i hate that it has my birth year in it. timeserena suits me fine now as it did when i was younger. i am just a little worried that i might get too much into having an identity with a female name. you know, like worried about my sexual identity or orientation or blah. i think that is a stupid thing to worry about so timeserena it is. sucka

i took more gameboy camera pictures finally!! a lot of them seem to be from bexley wine and cheese. check it out:

ruri’s sister

amanda

kyrstin bein cool

lp bein sneaky

kate smilin

aside from my new twitter identity everything is great. how are things going for you. two weeks until term is over, am i excited? yes. scared? a little. worried? a little. years just pass and pass. today this douche bag bully called me because i haven’t paid my credit card. he threatened to “damage my credit” hah! not something i care / will ever care about.

too much

this blog doesn’t get enough love, only four posts this month.

i really would be writing some really fun stuff to read except that i keep forgetting all the “neat” things i think about. super neat. the act of thinking of things to write in ur blog is completely weird.

oh my fucking god. i am doing my 6.111 project and i’ve been debugging this weird ass bug for about 3 hours now. oh the problem was that there actually was no problem, my output was bad because i didn’t declare a wire.

BURN FUCK YOUR ASS VERILOG BURN YOU SUCK

yeah that’s how i feel :’(

the good news is that i finally got it work yippee!! making things work is so fun! so rewarding. i really need that rewarding feeling. it gives me some sense of accomplishment. maybe self-worth.

i want to make a shirt for thinkgeek or something that says “programming gives me self-worth.” something that is actually true. “if i didn’t program my self-esteem would be considerably lower. srsly.” lol god that would be such a good nerd t-shirt.

on that blog stuff white ppl like (which is so fucking god omg) there is this one post about grad school. you should read it, i won’t spoil it for you.

anyway i’ve been in lab too long.

april must be my favorite month

420 and earth day in one month? hippies must have fasted during april.

also spring is here. it’s so much warmer. i’ve been wearing flip-flops and a small hoodie. flip flops are awesome, i love not having to tie my shoes or have my feet sweat.

i’ve been trying to post something for so long. every time i thought of something i would always forget it later. i’ve been thinking about a lot of things. things that are hard to think about and sad things and pointless things, i’ve been also thinking about all the work i have to do, but something good did come out of it in the end. more details on that later

for 420 dugan james and i played an acoustic space faces set on the east campus courtyard. it came out really well. we’ll probably perform true life at the international noise conference this thursday (wang auditorium mit!)

hmm what else is there? i’m really in a good mood. things are marching along w/ my projects for school. this past weekend was relaxing. the weather is so fine. oh yeah i also changed around my room. if i had a more accessible digital camera i would show you. amanda and i took lots of gameboy camera pictures. i’ll post those.

hunter polynomials

so i spammed 41w with the wikipedia link to chebyshev polynomials. they are amazing!! just simply for the fact that they are so easy to evaluate and they converge for all functions in the range [-1,1] (so useful), they are also orthogonal but any set of polynomials that are worth talking about are orthogonal. anyway after i did that dugan sent this quasi bitchy email about how the hermite polynomials were better because they form the solutions to the equation that describes a quantum harmonic oscillator. that was interesting. thanks to linear algebra i then realized that all these orthogonal sets of polynomials (chebyshev, legendre, hermite, gegenbauer, laguerre, etc) are just solutions to some equation Ax – lx = 0, where A is a known linear hermitian operator and l is a unknown scalar (the eigenvalue). it follows that x must be a eigenfunction of A, and since A is hermitian all the eigenfunctions must be orthogonal. the quantum harmonic oscillator is one such problem (schrodinger’s equation is exactly in that form lol).

so hey, if you wanted to come up with ur own set of orthogonal polynomials, just make up some hermitian A and find the eigenfunctions. there are other ways too. you can use gram-schmidt process to orthogonalize 1,x,x^2,… with respect to some inner product over some interval. blah blah. i became obsessed with creating my own orthogonal set of polynomials, my own infinite dimensional basis.

but yeah i am too busy doing a million other things at once. love ya

what be bizzin

hey fools

drools

i was going to write something earlier but i got caught up

they caught me

blogs are great the internet is great

so i feel like i’ve written a post like this before. oh maybe during winter break. i was really into the internet then but in a different way. i think then i was more amazed by how much information you can find and read and learn about. now i am amazed by the power it gives people to communicate. i don’t know what causes me to suddenly understand things like that. i guess i always knew that you could communicate better with the internet but i never realized the potential of the communication power.

i was looking through some pictures of people on facebook. actually i’ve been using facebook way too much recently. partly because of the new “people you may know” feature and partly because facebook is how i procrastinate sometimes :( anyway i usually look at people’s pictures of facebook when they’ve done something scandalous and i want to know what they look like or when i want to see how good looking someone is. i know, pretty low right? i would feel bad if it weren’t for the fact that most of the people use facebook this way. actually i think that is the general tone of it. maybe i’m wrong, it could all be subjective.

so i’ve been just browsing facebook casually, just looking at pictures of people for no reason at all other than to see what kind of person they are. after seeing some really nice pictures of people with their friends or people just being themselves or people posing in front of some statue on their vacation it all started to get really heartwarming. i don’t really post any of my pictures on facebook but at that point i kind of wished i did but i actually wished facebook wasn’t what i thought it was. i dunno facebook will probably never be able to remove their college campus roots.

i did wish that there was a different kind of social networking site, one that was just for people who knew each other and loved each other and just wanted to share their lives with each other while they were all in different locations. one that was actually based on long distance communication rather than “social networking.”

i love my blog. i hope i communicate with the people who read it. that is what it’s really for. i want to have more pictures. pictures of me doing fun things that people i care about could see. lol maybe that sounds rly corny but what would expect from me? especially when i’m leaving everyone i care about, again. yah.