the light

OMG RADIOHEAD

a choose-your-price album??

smart or less than you hoped for?

only time can tell.

you can have what’s left inside

hi!!!

what a beautiful saturday early afternoon.

i am just here with kate at bexley looking out of windows admiring the beauty of the earth.

and the earth of the beauty!!

yesterday was crazy. i spent literally five hours doing something that i only wanted to do for ten minutes. yes you guessed it, debugging!!! so three hours in, rurik, kemi, and helene (especially helene) were like “plz let’s drink omg let’s get so drunk1!!” two hours later after trying to debug the same bug i decided to scream into my pillow and turn off my computer. i felt like failure for a while but then dugan and helene snapped me out of it.  dugan was more loving, helene was more practical. they are soo different.

anyway i want you to know that the way that my speech patterns have been heavily influenced by dugan and helene and rurik and kemi and KATE and mike and that’s it. they are my current biggest speech pattern influencers. i guess lately i have been doing some amanda-style things. like “mmhhmmm” and “soooooo” i love speech patterns.

also we talk a lot about sex. a lot. a lottt. but girls hate it. girls hate talking about sex. not ALL girls. just all the girls i talk to.  prudes, mega prudes.

so that’s it. the bug still exists but i can’t work on it. i have to send emails to lots of ppl andddd i have to really finish my computer graphics project.

my darling, the computer

RAM = teh installed

said kate

goin crazy

i srsly am going crazy about my blog

i love that baby

i love that baby too

here is a stream of consciousness from last night:

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omg what the hell why do the software corporations try to make it so you can’t understnad how their software works, juitract you from doing things you want with their software. they make it so you can get scared of doin things like copying their software. yeah that’s exactly it.

omg i want to read stuff online so sososofofos oso smcuh.

bEEEP BEEP EBEEP I LOVE IT SO MUCH

COMPUTER BEEPS ARE THE SHIT HELL YAH I SAID IT

commercials are so so so sos osos o so alame, but people still respect them.

i wish you didn’t think everything was weird.

man a lot of weird things happen in the world.

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happy friday

mbv song title

i knew it so i knew it so i knewit

so i had this wild wild crazy wild hot wild dream

oh sorry i only meant one wild

the dream was kind of really intense. if you want to talk about it one day, just ask me in person.

aside from that dream i would just like to remind you that this is my 3rd blog post in a row, each per day. so fuck yea me, haha omg notttt

hahahhah UGHHH i can’t believe that dugan and rurik aren’t posting. those wild dudes are just too much for me. riding dirtah and all that.

okay gtg seriouslyyyy byeee

byeee love you

osht

i just did a handstand for 3 seconds

soonnn

so yes it’s true, school has officially started. nooooooo

when school unofficially started i was so relaxed, so calm. but there is always this point during the semester when suddenly one day i wake up and i have enough work to keep me constantly occupied for as long as i will be awake, and then some. great, thanks mit.

anyway it’s my last year here. whoop!! haha nottt. i am just scared of the abyss called real independent life. i guess i am not that scared. i’m just frustrated by all the injustice in the world. and confused as to how i fit in. or if i want to fit in. i guess i have to fit in?

compiler update: we have it generating low level ir. whoop!!

here is a scenario: you and your girlfriend are sick of conventional relationships that stunt your personal growth. so you decide to trust each other a little more and open your relationship up. anything, sex included. one day your girlfriend goes to some party where getting drunk is the highlight of the evening and she consequently gets giga drunk. this decent looking dude (you consider him a DOUCHE BAG) who may or may not be aware of your decision to be open does the right things at the right time and he and your girlfriend have sex that evening. she tells you the next day and you are kind of upset because you consider him a huge ignorant asshole cunt head. a week or two later, you are hanging out in some public place and he comes by. you are joking with some people about some stuff and suddenly he gratuitously mentions that he fucked your girlfriend and throws it in your face in a derogatory way, maybe he says something like she was annoyingly loud and couldn’t get her to shut up. what do you do???? matt garcia himself (sorry no link) couldn’t answer this question.

oh actually not, he recommended that you should just say “uh that’s great but it was just meaningless sex”

i guess in that case that would work. it isn’t really different from any other confrontational situation. but i still think there are too many complications with being in an open relationship.

the only way i can envision a successful open relationship is one where the two people aren’t necessarily in some kind of promise bond, they are more like two friends who are unusually comfortable with each other and they hang out daily or regularly and share their life and have sex sometimes too i guess, but also they go out separately sometimes and have sex with other people sometimes.

but friendships aren’t permanent, there are no promises there. ppl like other ppl all the time, ppl get sick of other ppl all the time. and what would be the purpose or goal? to eventually settle down anyway?

who cares. the phrase open relationship sounds stupid to me anyway. i don’t think it’s a concept that should be assigned a phrase. who caresss. life is too short to worry about dumb things like having sex with other ppl just because your youth clock is running out. i’ll probably eat my words forty years later.

anyway i cut my thumb yesterday. it has a huge slice on its side. i’m waiting for it to heal.

i want to take more pictures. hint hint hintt

i wish….

that dugan and rurik would blog on our blog

that i had time to do other things than just program over the weekend

that i knew what i wanted to do with my impending life

that i was not becoming ill

that drinking was fun again

that doing anything in general was fun again

that’s it for my wishes. after that they just become annoying complaints. i rly don’t know how i feel. i really just wish that i took more pictures of my friends, that computers and information technology weren’t a double sword, and that conspiracies weren’t true.

sunday night, no school tomorrow, headacheeee. if you want to be on our blogroll plz comment.

My Second Real Post

sooooooooooooo

omg four square looks sooooooo different.

to dugan, rurik: this is only temporary. i just wanted something presentable until we can get our other design running, which may be never. haha jk

anyway the real reason i did this is because i noticed we had visitors!!! ppl want to read our business!! so rly, until we can get our other design finished, we shouldn’t deny ppl their right to our business.

actually i blame amanda. everyday i would be trying to get some serious shit done and she would be like “rian rian rian where is your blog plzzz i need your business” oh amanda

so feel free to comment it up and say what is on your mind about what is on our minds and maybe we’ll say what is on our minds about what is on your mind about what is on our minds. haha okay yah i know those recursion jokes are lame. feel free to comment on that.

not much to say except i am going to write a sweet compiler this term.